Friday, March 30, 2007

Truly Blessed

The last 7 days have been a rollercoaster. Between Sarah coming early and her coming so fast that I couldn’t get an epidural, things have been very interesting.

So many people have been so helpful in this huge transition. Our friend Jean came over and watched Bekah for a little while as we headed to the hospital, and then our friend Amy came and took over until my mom could get home from work, finish packing, and make the 3.5 hour trek southward. My mom was an amazing help watching Bekah while we were still in the hospital and this help continued when we got home. She cleaned, did laundry, changed diapers, burped Sarah, and even got up several times in the middle of the night with a gassy baby while Mom and Dad got to get a couple hours sleep. She did everything that needed to get done without even being asked. Thanks Mom!!! I love you!!

My dad arrived on Wednesday to see his 2nd granddaughter. While he was here, he took Bekah on walks, played in our backyard, changed lightbulbs that have been out for several days, and ran errands. It’s always nice to see my dad. He doesn’t have as much time off as my mom, so it’s always nice to see him when we can.

My parents left yesterday afternoon. They are now in Virginia Beach for a wedding. I was really worried about being by myself. Bobby had class at 2:30, and the plan was for him to get Bekah down for a nap before he left so that I wouldn’t have both girls by myself. She usually falls asleep on the way to the babysitter’s on the afternoons of his class. Well, this time she wouldn’t fall asleep. And to boot, Sarah was having a fussy time, not wanting to eat or stay sleeping. I was really nervous when he left. (He took off work last night so he was coming home right after class.) There must have been people praying for me, because everything was great!! Bekah stayed in her room for a little while, and then came out and was a very good girl. Sarah eventually calmed down, and I was able to spend some time playing with both of them. Everything was under control when Bobby got home at 4:00. I know this will not happen every Tuesday and Thursday when he’s gone, but this was a good start, so I hope I will feel better about being by myself with the two of them soon.

I have been working really hard to spend quality time with Bekah without Sarah. Because of this, I haven’t been “napping when she naps,” but I think it is so important for my relationship with Rebekah to not change so dramatically.

Bobby is such a great daddy. He is amazing to see with his daughters. Between his 2 classes, working “part-time” at UPS in the evenings, and taking care of his family, he does a great job!! I love him very, very much, and I am so lucky that I have him in my life. I cannot imagine my life without him. I don’t get to spend as much time with him as I would like to, but I know that there is a time coming in the next few years that we will be able to spend much more time together. We work hard to communicate and spend as much quality time together now so that our relationship doesn’t diminish.

My sister and her family come today and will be here until Tuesday morning. I cannot wait to see my nephews and how they react to Sarah. I also cannot wait to see Bekah and her cousins playing. They have so much fun.

I feel truly blessed. There are so many wonderful people in my and my family’s life. I am still apprehensive about less from a week from now when I will have both daughters from 4-11 pm M-F, but I am starting to realize that I just needed to take life one moment at a time.

Thank you for your continued prayers. They are being felt here in the Fannin household.


Gene and Annie Luidhardt said...

Sounds like you had lots of good help those first few days. How is Sarah doing now? Hopefully, eating good and sleeping well for ya!

Amanda said...

I love that last photo of Sarah and Bobby passed out together...that is adorable. Don't worry, Paula, you will do great! Maybe I'm not the best person to dispense advice since we are yet to have our first kid :) but just remember, there are many things not worth worrying about...don't cry over spilt milk, as they say! Just enjoy this time with them while they are little...your daughters are both precious! We will be praying for you!